start today

so today has really shown me how depressed i was. i would say for the last two months or less all i would do is sleep most of the day, stay in my room all day. do maybe one thing like hangout with friends or something and that was it. i could care less about anything except sleeping and forgetting who i am. i wanted to forget what had happened to me so badly my brain convinced my body to just be exhausted all the time forcing me to fall asleep. today has been the first day in a while where i have successfully done a multiple of things and not feeling the need to go take a nap or something. i ate also very healthy today. i've been getting things done. i am going on an interview with zumiez later for a 2nd job. im feeling really motivated to keep myself busy and im hoping everything else will fall into place also. im hoping that today is the start of me feeling back to myself again even though i know things are still going to be hard.