this morning

this morning had a shitty start. i forgot to bring the coffee maker for my aunt and she was gonna pick it up from me at work. since i already had forgotten it yesterday i had to drive back and get it even though i was only 2 minutes away. ughhhhhhh. so instead of my driving for 20 minutes, it was more like an hour. im such a idiot sometimes haha.

they day has progressed now. im in such a funk. i have a reason to be mad about it all. i have a reason to be frustrated. i just want a straight answer from really any guy. im tired of playing games.

thanks for making me feel like crap and not good enough.

i try so fucking hard and i feel like im running in circles. nothing progresses and nothing changes. im having a bad day and everything is annoying me. i dont want to be around anyone. just really fuck everyone.

mmm love a good t-shirt

went with laura to the mall, target, and marshalls and i got a bunch of clothes yesterday. everything was decently priced. i got 2 pairs of jeans, tank top, 4 t-shirts, 3 dresses all for around a 100 bucks. that isn't bad at all. so im set for a while now.

i still want this dress from forever 21 that i saw on their website so im just gonna order it off there cause it was not in the store. poo!

afterwards me and laura were hysterical over doing the photobooth on my computer. i also proceeded to forget that my ceiling fan was going and i jumped and hit my hand into the spinning blades and fell on the floor laughing. great times.

then we went to the inkwell, met up with shaina, her cousins, sam, and nick. i had a delicious ice brownie sunday. yummmmm. i want another one right now! ton of fun. lot of good laughs and got some things cleared up that had been bothering me cause when is something not bothering me, really.

now im so freaking tired.

my grandmother fell and broke her ankle in two spots. oof.
my brothers graduation party is tomorrow. oof.
my aunt and uncle are coming today. yay.
hopefully i can see paul later.

retail therapy

yes i am going shopping for cute dresses, and maybe some new jeans and shorts and whatever else. yes it is going to make me feel better and i don't care.

my teeth hurt

i hate going to the dentist. they tell me i have to wear retainers for the rest of my life cause apparently your teeth are always shifting. well fuckkkkk that haha. so they yell at me everytime i go in and tell me to where it. nope! not doing it!

i had gummi worms with my lunch today. i havent had gummi worms in monthes.
it was good.

how come of all people i want change so badly and everyone else doesn't but it happens to them and of course the one person who wants it (me), it doesn't happen to.

i think a tattoo would make me feel a lot better, but i have no money for it. ugh

damn me being a new computer.

bulletspace

so i designed these posters back in may and helped my teacher silkscreen them also. so finally some photos have appeared of them. i hope i can still get one of the prints once the semester starts up again in fall. i really wish i could have seen them up in nyc though while i was still living there, but im glad theres actual documentation of it.

things i cant control change all the time

when i was getting ready this morning, i noticed my eyes are looking a different color. i used to have dark brown eyes and they aren't so dark anymore, almost look hazel or slightly turning green. i wonder what causes it. its strange.