busy bee

i had a really good day at my first day working at power monkey. i was busy the entire time and it was good. i didn't have to think about everything else that was going on in my life and could completely focus my mind entirely on the task at hand. that hasn't happened in a very long time. i know i shouldn't rely on other things to think that things will change and that i will change but i still will hope that i will have that change in me again so I can feel back to normal or just somewhat good about myself in general.

lots of work means me going to sleep early and i can't wait. i don't feel like a total waste of life anymore.