i love it!

thank you rebel 8 for putting all this stuff on sale and so i could especially get that hoodie that i had wanted so badly monthes ago. score! 8 dollars for shirts and that hoodie was 16. god damn thats good!

best

"I wish I could be a genius so that I can build a teleporter just for you."

best text i've received in a while :)

yesterday

yesterday i had the best day with my friends.

yesterday i saw something at the mall that broke my fucking heart.

im not ok now. not at all. i can't even breathe right now. i have never felt so hurt in my entire life.

i was driving

whenever im driving late at night now all i wanna do is drive out of this state to anywhere. where? i have no clue, but i just want to keep driving and staying dark outside. music playing, back roads in the trees, no ones there, im the only one one the road.

i woke up this morning and when i was driving to work, i wanted to cry, i held the last month in hoping things were looking up and different but i was wrong and i let him get away with what he wanted to do with me. i was just a pawn in his chess game. i never meant anything to him.

i stopped myself, from crying, he isn't worth it. not worth it.

i hope i don't have bad luck forever.

i need to remember to make an eye appointment. im pretty sure my vision got worse again.

crazy

this weekend was very crazy and drama filled and im glad it is over with.

new week. new things. new beginnings.

maybe

ill punch you in the face or one of my friends will, and you'll hurt just as much as i do right now.

decisions, decisions.

so much built up

so much built up inside me. you have absolutely no idea. i have no idea. this is too much for me to handle every day. i want some happiness back. i want it back so badly.

i need some luck or something.