new hat

my grandma knitted me a hat and i fucking love it. so stoked on it. i just don't feel like doing anything hereee. this sucks.

so ive waited here for you.

great fucking song. everlong.

hello 

i've waited here for you

everlong

tonight i throw myself into

and out of the red

out of her head she sang

come down

and waste away with me

down with me

slow how

you wanted it to be

I'm over my head

out of her head she sang

and i wonder

when i sing along with you

if everything could ever feel this real forever

if anything could ever be this good again

the only thing i'll ever ask of you

you've got to promise not to stop when i say when

she sang

breathe out so I can breathe you in

hold you in

and now you've always been

out of your head

out of my head i sang.

snowww

big white fluffy snowflakes outside...

today sucks

today was a really depressing day. my grandfathers girlfriend passed away and today is the funeral. it was really really sad and really cold. they had been together the whole time ive been alive and more and even though my grandfather hasn't be the greatest individual to me personally i can't help but feel very sad that it must be heartbreaking to loose someone you've spent most of your life with. other bad things have been happening to my friends. i feel really horrible. and i feel sad being back in the city, when i used to be so happy to come back. i guess im just distracted by other things that are more important.

?

did i do something wrong? is it me?

orange bikes

apparently according to this blog i read on nyc bicycling there has been a large number of orange bikes being stolen. liz's bike that she gave me is orangey red. greatttt. triple lock that shit haha.

this time in the bike dream part of my leg got ripped off and i didnt die. an improvement but still fucking painful.

i also started reading the watchmen today and its so fucking good. so good.