today sucks

today was a really depressing day. my grandfathers girlfriend passed away and today is the funeral. it was really really sad and really cold. they had been together the whole time ive been alive and more and even though my grandfather hasn't be the greatest individual to me personally i can't help but feel very sad that it must be heartbreaking to loose someone you've spent most of your life with. other bad things have been happening to my friends. i feel really horrible. and i feel sad being back in the city, when i used to be so happy to come back. i guess im just distracted by other things that are more important.