less than 24 hours

in less than 24 hours i will be moving back to new jersey. i will not be moving back to nyc in september this time. i don't think it will really hit me until september comes around though. its weird how time goes by so fucking fast. 4 years already! 4 years after high school. i learned so much in these 4 years, that I'm really glad i got to experience even though somethings I wish had never happened, but definately helped me learn a lot about myself. 

tomorrow my dad is picking me up around 3 to move out. oh did i mention i also have a surfboard now haha. apparently ryan wasn't gonna take it at playboy so i claimed it! so exciting! 

then the great unpacking and room redoing will commence.

also applying for apple credit card and buying new computer this coming week possibly. 

things im looking forward to this summer:

-both of my jobs are gonna be awesome, so im looking forward to both of them and the people i'll be working with (not many people can say this haha but i actually can).

-bike rides

- learning to surf obviously, me and tom are gonna take turns killing ourselves while doing this haha

- hanging out with all of my friends who i haven't seen in a while

- hanging out with tom

- being stupid

- hanging outside

- having a GOOD TIME

- eating lots of cupcakes haha

hell yeah

gotta keep looking to tomorrow, gotta stay strong

here is wishing you the bluest skies

hoping something better comes tomorrow

hoping all the verses rhyme

the very best choruses too

follow all the doubt and sadness 

i know that better things are on their way

here is hoping all the days ahead

won't be as bitter as the ones behind you

be an optimist instead

and somehow happiness will find you

forgot what happened yesterday 

i know that better things are on their way

it's really good to see you rocking out and having fun

living life like you've just begun 

accept your life and what it brings

i hope tomorrow you find better things

i know tomorrow you'll find better things

i know you got a lot of good things happening up ahead 

the past is gone, it's all been said 

so heres to what the future brings 

i hope tomorrow you'll find better things

sometimes

i just need a smack in the face! 

tomorrow i hand in my portfolio. then im watching freaks and geeks the rest of the day and maybe hanging out outside but it won't be the same without my bike here.

i miss my bike dearly here. i get very jealous every time i see someone riding there's here which is about every second when im outside! booooo.

i want to fall asleep now, so i can make tomorrow come faster. :(

wow i actually have some time again

i finished my portfolio tuesday night and had it sent out wednesday morning. i can't believe its done. thank god. im pretty happy with it and really could give a shit less of what they say at the review because last year didn't help, its the classes that help you grow anyways, and not some stupid review. 

im going to order the bike today as soon as i get an email back from the company saying the size will be good for me. so exciting! my mother is gonna be pissed but oh well, I wanted it before and it just ran out of my size before. 

today will be my last day of communication graphic design. 3 classes down and two more to go, too bad they are spread over the next week and a half and I just can't finish them next week. It'll be nice to have the week off for the most part though. I just need to print out my cd stuff and thats it!

went the zoo yesterday and it was fun watching all the animals. I wish I had more time not to rush through but it also started to rain, so I guess it worked out that way. Maybe I'll go back next week since I'll have all that free time. 

countdown is at"drum roll" 9 days! can you believe that! i sure can't.

so close

i have about 5 more pages left of the portfolio. ugh.

im tired and very cranky and my eyes are burning and make me want to cry.

portfolio puts me in such a horrible stressful mood.

i don't want to be here.

i want to be in his arms.

wow im 22!

im 22 years old! im old! so wednesday was the music video awards and i won for best editing. 

it was a great time! friday i got out of work early went home, went for a bike ride, went the mall and got new plaid vans (!!!) and got new gauges. then hungout with tom who was drunk and silly. saturday was my bday! ah! a bunch of people didn't make it out, but thats ok cause i had an awesome time with liz and tom. it was a day of food! went to diner and got banana pancakes. mmmmmmmm. then went to asbury to go to the record store. got gorilla biscuits, link 80, and lifetime and of course some neil diamond (it was free). thennn we hungout outside cause it was glorious outside. next meal we got hibachi and it was great and then tom told them it was my birthday and it was the funniest thing ever, cause they came out with a gong and a a shooting sparkler on top of my cake and then kept saying bonzai! i wasn't even embarrased cause it was so funny. then went home and had ice cream cake and brownie/cookie cake. both were delicioussss. sooooo full by the end of the day. but sooooooo good.

now im back in the city. i dont think i plan on sleeping tonight. i have to get all my cd stuff done and hopefully get most of my portfolio done. my parents took a bunch of my stuff home also today so the moveout will be easier. i can't believe only 2 weeks left and im done living here and being here for the most part. 

countdown 13 days.