exhausted

i had a really good weekend and went to philly with liz for her b'day dinner. it was great food and really fucking cold but still a great time. then yesterday we went to the punk rock flea market, i was trying to hold back from buying too much so I got a gorilla biscuits, and paint it black records. biked there and back. it was great weather for it. then went back to jersey exhausted. still exhausted. also very confused on things. so confused and don't know if I should say something or keep quiet. how long can i keep quiet without it eating me inside. Theres no real reason why I should be unhappy right now, but more like not satisfied with something, and its only one thing. i don't know what to do about it though.

I cut in line, I bled to death. I got to you, there was nothing left.

blurry vision

i hate when ive been staring too long without blinking and my contacts get all screwed up and then everything gets all blurry. hate that. everytime i take them out i think im just gonna go blind and that would utterly suck beyond words. such blurry vision.

i am not an object

it makes me so mad when a certain individual decides to text me after a long period of time after initially hanging out in the first place to hangout because he thinks we didnt hangout enough. basically wants to get some. does he think im stupid? does he think im someone he can just use? im not. fuck that. and hes not just doing this to me hes doing it to every girl thats available at the time. who can hangout? not me.

break my teeth

But cute isn't strong enough a word.

unintentionally gorgeous.

i wish i could help. i wish i could make it better.

great apes!

i could stare at these guys all day long.

its good to get dirty sometimes

i went for a bike ride today because I haven't been able to in such a long time because of doing things and shitty weather. needless to say the bike paths were horribly cleaned. ton of water,snow, mud and tons of potholes in a bike path which I don't understand as only bikes and people are on these paths. at one point i decided to turn around as it got exceptionally worse even though I knew I could go for much more, it also started to snow again. Legs covered in mud i decided to venture back to the apartment. i plan on doing the boro bike tour in may and so want to get in pretty good shape for that.

did not

sleep well.