gotta keep looking to tomorrow, gotta stay strong

here is wishing you the bluest skies

hoping something better comes tomorrow

hoping all the verses rhyme

the very best choruses too

follow all the doubt and sadness 

i know that better things are on their way

here is hoping all the days ahead

won't be as bitter as the ones behind you

be an optimist instead

and somehow happiness will find you

forgot what happened yesterday 

i know that better things are on their way

it's really good to see you rocking out and having fun

living life like you've just begun 

accept your life and what it brings

i hope tomorrow you find better things

i know tomorrow you'll find better things

i know you got a lot of good things happening up ahead 

the past is gone, it's all been said 

so heres to what the future brings 

i hope tomorrow you'll find better things

sometimes

i just need a smack in the face! 

tomorrow i hand in my portfolio. then im watching freaks and geeks the rest of the day and maybe hanging out outside but it won't be the same without my bike here.

i miss my bike dearly here. i get very jealous every time i see someone riding there's here which is about every second when im outside! booooo.

i want to fall asleep now, so i can make tomorrow come faster. :(

wow i actually have some time again

i finished my portfolio tuesday night and had it sent out wednesday morning. i can't believe its done. thank god. im pretty happy with it and really could give a shit less of what they say at the review because last year didn't help, its the classes that help you grow anyways, and not some stupid review. 

im going to order the bike today as soon as i get an email back from the company saying the size will be good for me. so exciting! my mother is gonna be pissed but oh well, I wanted it before and it just ran out of my size before. 

today will be my last day of communication graphic design. 3 classes down and two more to go, too bad they are spread over the next week and a half and I just can't finish them next week. It'll be nice to have the week off for the most part though. I just need to print out my cd stuff and thats it!

went the zoo yesterday and it was fun watching all the animals. I wish I had more time not to rush through but it also started to rain, so I guess it worked out that way. Maybe I'll go back next week since I'll have all that free time. 

countdown is at"drum roll" 9 days! can you believe that! i sure can't.

so close

i have about 5 more pages left of the portfolio. ugh.

im tired and very cranky and my eyes are burning and make me want to cry.

portfolio puts me in such a horrible stressful mood.

i don't want to be here.

i want to be in his arms.

wow im 22!

im 22 years old! im old! so wednesday was the music video awards and i won for best editing. 

it was a great time! friday i got out of work early went home, went for a bike ride, went the mall and got new plaid vans (!!!) and got new gauges. then hungout with tom who was drunk and silly. saturday was my bday! ah! a bunch of people didn't make it out, but thats ok cause i had an awesome time with liz and tom. it was a day of food! went to diner and got banana pancakes. mmmmmmmm. then went to asbury to go to the record store. got gorilla biscuits, link 80, and lifetime and of course some neil diamond (it was free). thennn we hungout outside cause it was glorious outside. next meal we got hibachi and it was great and then tom told them it was my birthday and it was the funniest thing ever, cause they came out with a gong and a a shooting sparkler on top of my cake and then kept saying bonzai! i wasn't even embarrased cause it was so funny. then went home and had ice cream cake and brownie/cookie cake. both were delicioussss. sooooo full by the end of the day. but sooooooo good.

now im back in the city. i dont think i plan on sleeping tonight. i have to get all my cd stuff done and hopefully get most of my portfolio done. my parents took a bunch of my stuff home also today so the moveout will be easier. i can't believe only 2 weeks left and im done living here and being here for the most part. 

countdown 13 days.

moveout!

i am moving out may 2nd. this means the countdown is now at 18 days. 

HELL YEAH!

i am also going to be 22 in 4 days. fuck. im getting older!

i got a lot of work done already but have been slowing down now. my stomach is being stupid again. im pretty tired but tomorrow will be so much fun. can't wait! i just kind of want to listen to records and lay in bed. but even better yet, laying in bed with tom listening to records AND eating cookies, without my stomach being stupid. 

picture post

another picture of the new tattoo in reference with my other leg
    really awesome flowers blooming in central park
vvvme in the glass of the sea lion pool.
the polar bear decided to go for a swim and it looked way awesome.

so graceful underwater. amazing that such a big guy could float so easily in the water.

this guy would not stop circling the pool the entire time.

snow monkeys!

20 more days

It will be 20 more days of living in the city. I will miss it yet I will not. I will miss being able to get around everywhere. Riding in the city, weaving in and out of cars, wondering if some cab driver isn't paying attention, but the thrill of that making it that more exciting. Missing the fact that there is always something going on, no matter what time of the night. Having the best food and art at my finger tips. This whole year all I have cared about is improving my artwork cause I felt it was at this stand still last year. It's great to feel that I have done so much better quality work that I was totally into this year. It wasn't projects that I was just given so I knew how to do it. No I did what I wanted to do this year. The days are winding down and its going by very fast. The next couple of weeks will be a lot of fun, hard work, no sleep, and sense of accomplishment, sadness and happiness. 

It is my time to leave though. I don't know if I could ever totally live in the city and feel settled because I always have the want to go back to New Jersey no matter what. As much as I will miss new york I have so many things to look forward to after this semester ends. I have the greatest friends, the greatest family, and the greatest new boyfriend, and those are all back here, and not there. 

New York city your a hell of a town, you'll always be in my heart, but new jersey took it first.

i can't ever stop missing

So I didn't get much sleep last night. I kept having dreams where my dog Valentine was in them. This happens every few monthes, and I always wake up upset missing her even more than before and then the entire day I'm on the verge of tears thinking about her. It has been a little over 2 years now since we had to put her down and its still so hard when I come home and expect to see her when I walk in the door. 

But in good news we are watching Riley this weekend which is really the next best thing, because he is awesome. He's huge and is like a bear.

my portfolio

my portfolio is completely laid out now. all i have to do is finish a few projects and just place them where they need to go. a preview of the feel of it with the cover i drew up for today. working on the table of contents for later. 

lots of good good things.

this weekend was another great weekend and very eventful. friday i got tattooed and seriously it just gets easier each and every time. i can stand the pain better and probably could have gone for another hour on top of the other one. tom met up with me and we got fallafel from maozzz, and then started to watch hot fuzz when we had to go to the hospital cause he knew he had a kidney stone.

ive probably never laughed so much while in the ER. we saw a ton of drunk people, especially this asian girl who puked all over herself when she got in and proceeded to curl up into a little ball like an anime character and almost fall off the bed. another dude got hit by a car and then another guy was just totally covered in blood. needless to say very entertaining. we left there about 3am haha. 

countdown till school is done: 28 days

ADC show

so the adc show was on tuesday and it was really awesome to see everything and have my video in it. there was a ton of people and they served a lot of food and the best part coke in glass bottles.  i had 2 bottles of coke and then shared half of one of those 5 hour energy drinks with elana. needless to say i was up for a while and woke up with my heart pounding. never again!